I swear to God April 7,2006

Green and green.

I felt that it's spring, a few birds were flying and the first time I felt that how much I have a good life.

I stood near a window in a church.

I heard the sound of the birds and I tried to think about my life.

About the things that is going on my last teenager years.

Yes... I'm 17 and I have only 2 more years.  I was thinking that how nice is it that in this age I knew this.

And I felt that after 3month it was the first time that I didn't feel alone.

For each other people the first month in Canada was very hard , for myself was hard too.

Yeah , in Iran right. I had more than one hundred friends.

It was a very bad force for me at the first days.

But

.....But

Today in that posture near sunset something nice happened to me .

I remembered that I'm different  ,I have one friend that I can stand for him.

And I know that he will stand for me too.

I knew that I can have a friend that he will think about me in his life.

Someone that I can feel that he pay attention to me.

Someone that I can help him.

Someone is my best friend and I'm his best friend too.

I know sometimes maybe I'm not even a good friend.

But I'm going to swear to god.

I'm going to swear to his name that:

Even if he lie to me

Even if he does the worst thing in the world with me

Even if he hates me

Even he .........

I'm going to say that please be with me I need you.

I know that he is not like this and thats why that I'm going to sacrifice for him

Thats why because at this moment I feel that I love him.

And if you love somebody you cant never never do even one bad thing with your best friend.

I'm going to like him more and more with every second of my life

I'm going to feel him more and more

I'm going to be his the thing that he want as a friend and he expect

I going to do my best I know that if I want then I can

So try and try to find new friends don't fool yourself and find your partner

And after that be proud of yourself :

That you find a friend

And be proud of he/she that thinks that you are for him/her

Try and try to keep your friend and let him/her to feel that you are his/her friend

And Hamid

Tnx for all of your attention and everything

I dont know how to thank you

And you are great , let me feel that you are my friend